Join Savia Rocks on the latest episode of the Us People Podcast as she engages in a compelling dialogue with the esteemed author of M.E Myself & I, Nicky Alan.
- Gain insights into Nicky's personal journey encompassing life and spirituality
- Explore the process of writing her book and embracing vulnerability as an author
- Reflect on the challenges and triumphs of navigating life in her 20s
- Delve into pivotal moments where Nicky sought solace from the universe, reflecting on the importance of seeking help
- Understand the dynamics of Nicky's family life and her experiences within a dysfunctional, fractured family unit
- Experience moments of laughter and much more as Savia and Nicky delve into heartfelt conversations
Don't miss this profound episode that sheds light on the power of laughter and vulnerability, leaving listeners inspired and enlightened.
"Selfishness is not a bad thing when it comes to taking care of your health." - Savia Rocks
Website: https://www.nickyalan.co.uk/
Thank you so much, Nicky, for making me laugh with so many emotions, shining through.
Host, Creator & Producer: Savia Rocks
Artists of Theme Song: Savia Rocks & IAMSUUBI
Podcast Audio Editor: Savia Rocks
Creative Director: Philippa Michael
Writer & Producer of Theme Song: Savia Rocks & IAMSUUBI
Become Part of The Us People Podcast Community and donate: https://donorbox.org/us-people-podcast
Savia Rocks Website: https://www.savia.rocks/
Join Savia Rocks on the latest episode of the Us People Podcast as she engages in a compelling dialogue with the esteemed author of M.E Myself & I, Nicky Alan.
- Gain insights into Nicky's personal journey encompassing life and spirituality
- Explore the process of writing her book and embracing vulnerability as an author
- Reflect on the challenges and triumphs of navigating life in her 20s
- Delve into pivotal moments where Nicky sought solace from the universe, reflecting on the importance of seeking help
- Understand the dynamics of Nicky's family life and her experiences within a dysfunctional, fractured family unit
- Experience moments of laughter and much more as Savia and Nicky delve into heartfelt conversations
Don't miss this profound episode that sheds light on the power of laughter and vulnerability, leaving listeners inspired and enlightened.
"Selfishness is not a bad thing when it comes to taking care of your health." - Savia Rocks
Website: https://www.nickyalan.co.uk/
Thank you so much, Nicky, for making me laugh with so many emotions, shining through.
Host, Creator & Producer: Savia Rocks
Artists of Theme Song: Savia Rocks & IAMSUUBI
Podcast Audio Editor: Savia Rocks
Creative Director: Philippa Michael
Writer & Producer of Theme Song: Savia Rocks & IAMSUUBI
Become Part of The Us People Podcast Community and donate: https://donorbox.org/us-people-podcast
Savia Rocks Website: https://www.savia.rocks/
Nicky Alan - Author
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Savia Rocks: [00:00:00] Hey guys, we made it to season five of the Us people podcast. I'm your host Savia Rocks. And in this season, we aim to empower and embrace creativity through diversity, as we dive into the fascinating stories and experiences of a diverse range of individuals. Highlighting their unique perspectives and creative endeavors from artists and entrepreneurs to innovators and activists.
Savia Rocks: We celebrate the power of diversity in driving creativity and fostering positive change. Join us as we engage in thought provoking conversations like
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J Harris: I
Mel: think my family never, ever say you can't do something. So full of support, full of support for whatever dream. If I said tomorrow, when I fly to the moon, they'll probably say, I wish you all the best now.
Savia Rocks: So [00:01:00] guys, I just want to say thank you for supporting the Us people podcast for the past five years.
Savia Rocks: And we look forward to sharing another new theme song with you. Let's go.
Nicky Alan: Hi, I'm Nikki Allen, a psychic medium, author and angel communicator. And you are listening to the Us People podcast with Savia Rocks.
Savia Rocks: Hey guys, welcome to another episode of the Us People Podcast. I'm your host Savia Rocks, and today I'm really humbled and happy to have Nikki Allen on the Us People Podcast. We've been laughing way before we press record, which is so cool, but let me tell you what Nikki does before we start cracking up and we won't be able to stop.
Savia Rocks: So Nikki. It's the author of Me, Myself and [00:02:00] I, The Diary of a Psychic, it's a brilliant book. I urge you to go and read it because it's, it's like a, it's like a memoir of everything that she's been through. And I'm, I'm just about to talk to her about it, but I want to, want to let you guys know it's a memoir of everything that she's kind of been through.
Savia Rocks: in several years of everything just happening one after the other. And I believe it's about making choices, but knowing in the end what choices you've made, but wanting to change. And that's a beautiful thing within itself. So Nikki. I want to thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for coming on the Yes People podcast.
Savia Rocks: How are you doing this evening?
Nicky Alan: Darling,
it's a pleasure. You
Nicky Alan: totally got that together. How professional are you? And do you know what? Your voice is so gorgeous. Oh my God, it's just like the most delicious chocolate running down my throat. [00:03:00] And then I sound like this Essex girl.
Hello!
Nicky Alan: Honestly! I sound like I was being hypnotized by you and then suddenly you're gonna hear my voice and go, Oh, big wake up call.
Nicky Alan: Come on Essex girl, hang on my neck.
Nicky Alan: Darling, thank you so much for having me here. And you're absolutely right with that book. It's, oh my goodness, as we, we, as we go through the stages of it, it, it's um, I think a very massive, massive example of how much human loss you can take and still have faith. Because I've pretty much lost everything, but no, thank you for having me here, darling.
Nicky Alan: Let's try not to laugh.
Savia Rocks: Hey, this is what it's about. We need more laughter. Believe me, we need more laughter. Oh my goodness,
Nicky Alan: don't we? Do you know what I was doing? I was doing a video. Um, I think it was yesterday on YouTube. And there were so many people saying, Oh my God, you made [00:04:00] me laugh so much. Thank you.
Nicky Alan: And it's just, you've got to. The situation that the planet's in at the moment, If you don't laugh, you're just going to cry I think. You've got to laugh about it. So you might as well do both
Savia Rocks: together. You can laugh and cry together, but be happy. Yeah! Yeah, you can cry
Nicky Alan: as well. If you need to release, have a little cry as well.
Nicky Alan: Or if it's a happy cry, that's fine. But you've got to laugh because my goodness, you know, one of the biggest things in, in me, myself and I is, is about mindset, you know, no matter what's happening in your life, if your mindset is focused and you're calm and you're happy and you're positive. Then you can win any battle, even if it is sitting day after day inside, you know, Um, it's like, there's not a violin in the background, by the way, you might be picking up on my poorly little dog crying.
Nicky Alan: And the thing is, if I now go and put him in a room somewhere, people need to go, how cruel is that? That poor dog's crying and she's thrown him in a room. I can't even put him under the stairs because I live [00:05:00] in a bungalow. Let him out. Why don't you let
him out?
Savia Rocks: Let him out, Nikki, let him out.
Nicky Alan: He won't go out because it's raining.
Nicky Alan: Oh my goodness. But it doesn't matter. He'll calm down in a minute. He's just got a bad tummy, so he likes to tell me about it. But he's away now with my other little dog having a cuddle, so he should be alright. Which is just in case people think, Oh my god, something paranormal's happening! I can hear something in the background!
It
Savia Rocks: might be our cousins, you never know.
Nicky Alan: Oh yeah baby, we are family! Absolutely, it could be our
Savia Rocks: cousins. See what I mean? So, let me jump! into our first question, Nikki, because I had to wipe the tears from my eyes because we've been laughing so much, but, uh, I'm going to try, I'm going to try and be serious for a second.
Savia Rocks: It's not going to work. Just try, darling. Try very, very hard. Yeah. See, you don't make it any easier.
Nicky Alan: So I can't help it. Your energy is so light and [00:06:00] refreshing. I can feel it and I'm bouncing off and it just makes me feel really happy. Go on, do it. Be serious. Go, go, go, go,
Savia Rocks: go, go. Right. That's what the police said to me.
Savia Rocks: No, sorry. I just had to say that. It just came up from nowhere.
Savia Rocks: I'm going to go into my first question. I'm going to bring the mood down and I'm going to go into my first question. So my first question for absolutely everyone who comes on the show and everybody knows this because I always say that sentence is Nikki. Can you tell me about your life of where you grew up and how that influenced you to be the person who you are today?
Nicky Alan: Yeah, of course. I, I think really it's a, it's a big spiritual part, um, that influenced me. My, I grew up, I was really happy in a massively happy family actually. My dad was an upholsterer. Um, my mum, um, helped him out as well. She was a seamstress and, [00:07:00] and helped him. Um, and, um, I've got a younger brother, younger sister, and we were very happy.
Nicky Alan: The only difference was, is that paternal side was full of psychics, healers, and that kind of thing. So I kind of grew up, I remember those early years of tarot cards being on the table. So it's a very spiritually led type life, which I thought, you know, everybody was pretty much like, I didn't realize that I wasn't a muggle.
Nicky Alan: I was, I was a witch, but, um, you know, everything was happy and healthy and fantastic until my dad died in a road accident when I was nine. Um, and that pretty much was a catalyst to so much trauma in my life and the rest of my family. My mum really lost the will to live, um, she gave up then and there because she was a 32 year old woman with three kids under 10.
Nicky Alan: So she just lost the plot, love of her life gone in a heartbeat. Um, and then I had my dad visit me two [00:08:00] days later when I was out walking the dog with my auntie, the whole family was staying. And I saw him pull up in a car and put his thumb up and say, Nick, I'm okay, don't worry. So I've gone absolutely ballistic, gone home and you can, you can imagine everybody's moaning.
Nicky Alan: And I basically like said, how dare you lie? I've just seen Daddy, you know, he is alive. He's alive. Why are you lying? So the skeptical side, I suppose my mom's side of the family, even though my mom was psychic as well. Well, thinking I'll bless her. She's grieving. But my granddad then said to me, um, my dad's dad said, you're, you're different.
Nicky Alan: You're going to start seeing things other people can't then you'd actually first one. I used to have dreams and awareness of energy and things, but I'd never seen a proper spirit person. And then my mom ended up a few years later, uh, marrying an animal basically, who was, Um, a physical sexual abuse, a mental abuser.
Nicky Alan: And so I went through many, many years of horrific abuse. And my mum, um, kind of took it [00:09:00] for the team so that my brother and sister were protected. And so I turned out to be a very, very angry person with the life that we'd been given by that stage. But the problem was, is that I was obsessed with wanting to be a police officer.
Nicky Alan: So. An angry girl that wants to, you know, totally roar out there because of the, you know, what we've been given. We've done nothing wrong and I felt we'd been punished. And I was then, I was then going to become a police officer and I absolutely nailed it. I nailed it every single exam I did at school. I was so focused on wanting to get that job.
Nicky Alan: Um, And that job was my most magnificent armour for the rest of my old life, if you like. Um, because I hid behind, um, Detective Morley, because that's my, my, um, original name, Morley. I hid behind that, that, um, badge. And all of the anger and the discontent and the hurt and the pain and the vulnerability.
Nicky Alan: That I felt kind [00:10:00] of was hidden away. And so I stood behind this strong, I know what I'm doing. Roughly tufty detective, you know, in the police service, um, and didn't really come to terms. Didn't heal, didn't look after myself inside and outside. Um, I had no respect for myself because when you are a victim of abuse, you tend to end up believing and getting a self belief system of what your abuse is telling you.
Nicky Alan: So I had no self esteem whatsoever. I had no self belief, no self worth. And I pretty much just clambered my way through my twenties, being the biggest party girl, trying to be the best copper in the whole of the police force, striving to be the best to people, please. And I never for one minute thought how unhealthy that was.
Nicky Alan: Never for one minute did I realize how unhealthy it was. I just thought that, yeah, I'm the party girl, you know, I'm this, and don't get me wrong, you know, at the end of the day, everything that happens [00:11:00] in life, um, you know, you know, it's not as if I look back and go, Oh no, that was horrible. I hate that person.
Nicky Alan: I'm honoring that person because of the hurt I was going through. But what I can see now, after the amazing miracles that took place, which obviously we'll talk about in a bit after that, I've seen. All of the actions, behavior and choices that I made back then were all fight or flight. They were all based on how to protect myself and how not to expose myself to vulnerability.
Nicky Alan: And so it was exhausting. It was exhausting trying to be someone that I wasn't. And then when I got retired, um, with an injury on duty. I was retired, medically retired from the police service and they just dropped me like a stone, you know, just wasn't important anymore. They just didn't even bother picking up any of my stuff.
Nicky Alan: It was just like, right, you're out, you're no use to us. And that was it. So I also had issues with abandonment, you know, they were my family. When we say about our [00:12:00] family, which is like the angel realms of universe, spirit world, um, I was out from this family, you know, I didn't see anybody that obviously you work and play with these people.
Nicky Alan: So I went through this huge breakdown and that was when the demons started rushing in even then. And so I, I had a lot of therapy to deal with some of the stuff, but it was more the mental side of the healing that took place during those years. Um, and then. Literally, um, my house came alive. I started getting spirit people visiting me during the night.
Nicky Alan: The person I was with at the time saw them and heard them as well. There were light bulbs exploding when I walked past them. It was like watching, I don't know, Sabrina and the Witch, an episode of that. It's like, what the hell is going on? And my house was alive. And then, um, we spirit people. Um, and then there was a spirit baby crying, crying, crying, crying every night.
Nicky Alan: Um, every time I went to a room, it went into another room. And if you've heard, you know, like a newborn baby [00:13:00] wailing, that was it. And even my partner could hear it. It was absolutely horrific. And then it wasn't until my friend Used me to go to see a medium with her. She was scared of going on her own.
Nicky Alan: And I turned up on the doorstep and the medium said to me, you need to start working for the spirit world because once you do that the baby will stop crying i was like wow hang on a minute that's really cool and then that started the nicky allen ride if you like of me um perhaps most probably hiding behind my next persona which was a psychic medium and literally within a couple of months i had a year's waiting list i started doing television work and it all just kind of Literally threw in front of me and before I knew it, I was working with the best mediums in, you know, in the country and, um, writing in magazines and the whole world wanted what I had to give, which was this unbelievable talent that had been handed down to me, you know, and then.
Nicky Alan: Without doing too many [00:14:00] spoilers, the road accident happened, and wow, that was the third phase of my life, which wasn't great.
Savia Rocks: Oh wow. So let's, hold on, so, so you, you've been through all of that, first of all, and then the accident happens. So break down, break down the accident for me.
Nicky Alan: Oh my goodness. It was, I was with someone.
Nicky Alan: And again, this was, um, and you'll, you'll see this in me, myself and I, that I made bad life choices. Um, I, I just needed to be loved, excuse me, and feel safe. And I had two particular partners who I adored, two long term partners who I really did love. Um, but. The second one came to an end because he was an alcoholic.
Nicky Alan: Um, and I, I found strength in a few years being on my own. I thought, yeah, I'm okay. And then I made the biggest mistake of, um, going with someone who was a really negative energy, um, but I [00:15:00] didn't care cause I was desperate to be loved. And he was driving a car down in Devon.
I was
Nicky Alan: still living in Essex, still had a house in Essex, and I fell in love with Devon when I was touring down here with Colin Fry and, um, Derek Okora at the Riviera Centre in Torquay, and I thought I'm going to live here.
Nicky Alan: I love it here in Devon because I adore the sea. I am a sea baby. Scuba diving is my passion. If I'm in, on, around the sea, I'm the happiest person in the world. And, um, literally we came down here, I was looking at getting a mobile home, and we thought we'd go into, to go. I turned into a restaurant. I was in the passenger seat as we turned in to go into the restaurant.
Nicky Alan: A girl who had just passed her test the day before t boned us. She didn't even see us turn in there. So she came straight into the side of the car that I was on and I could see her coming. And one of the things that went through my head was my dad died because of an impact where the van Tipped over that he was in and I thought, God, I'm going to go the same way as [00:16:00] my dad.
Nicky Alan: How's my mum going to handle this? She was already a ghost of her own self, you know? And, um, and I was desperately trying to get my seatbelt off to get over the other side because I thought she's going to crush me and it wouldn't release. So the impact ended up with me squashed over on the, on the console of the car.
Nicky Alan: Unbelievably. The car behind the woman who was driving, the girl who was driving, was a police car. So he was on the scene, it was almost angel led because he was on the scene, I was screaming in agony, I thought I'd broken every bone in my body, um, and he literally radioed and amazingly there was an ambulance literally just up the road, so they were with me within minutes, and they had to get me out on gas now, um, And I couldn't see any blood.
Nicky Alan: I thought they'll be, I honestly thought I had like, you know, um, broken fractures that broken the skin compound fractures. That was a pain I was in, um, got to the [00:17:00] hospital. They were, they were pumping morphine into me like nobody's business. And I thought I've got internal injuries. This is all I could think of at the time.
Nicky Alan: And when they came back and said, you've just got soft tissue damage. I was like, what? I'm in agony. You've got this wrong. You've missed something. No, no, no, no. So they gave me a load of Oramorph to take back home with me. We was renting a place down here at the time, um, in Devon and went back there. And then I came out early hours of the morning, slept for about a day and the following evening I woke up and it was just a bit of twilight.
Nicky Alan: And I realized the twilight Burning through my eye sockets. And I thought, what the heck is going on? I just, it was agonizing. The pain I was in, I can't even describe to you. It was muscular. Skin, um, joint, everything was in agonizing, I like kill me now pain. And then when I tried to get up, I just flopped on the floor like a sack of [00:18:00] potatoes.
Nicky Alan: I couldn't even walk, couldn't get up. So screaming out for the person I was with, I call him Dick in the book. Yeah, I realized, I
Savia Rocks: realized that resin that resonated with me big time. Oh my God. And it was coupled as well. That's what made it. That's so Dick. I was like, Oh. I didn't
Nicky Alan: know if I should do that because I thought it's not really love and light in it, but at the end of the day, I think that people connect with me more because I'm so down to earth.
Nicky Alan: And so, you know, rather than wear a cobweb dress and turn the lighting down and go, Whoa, I'm psychic and I do that all rubbish, you know, you've got the grounded part from being a copper. And then just me. I remember when people from the police came and watched me when I was in theatres. And they thought, oh my god, we thought he was going to be in a long velvet dress and talk all posh.
Nicky Alan: I said, you having a laugh? I had a pair of jeans on and I was me. You know, I'm not going to change that. So [00:19:00] anyway, um, they had to carry me to the toilet and I thought something really seriously is wrong here. Um, three days later, I went back to the hospital and they couldn't find anything wrong. I said, you've missed something.
Nicky Alan: I'm in so much pain. So they, all they did was just give me more and more pain relief. So I was like zonked out and cut a very long story short. I ended up, um, having a year of pain. perpetual tests. And what was what I would not do though, I would not let go. I knew that I had something really serious. I knew that I had something really serious and I wouldn't let go.
Nicky Alan: So I was even doing shows. This is how much disrespect I had for myself. I was even doing shows, um, on, you know, and theaters and halls with a settee, a soft settee so that I could sit and do the show. Whereas I should have been in bed. So I was screaming and crying all the way up to doing this demonstration of mediumship I'd be doing.
Nicky Alan: And then I would literally throw like vodka, Red [00:20:00] Bull, painkillers down my throat and to get through it. And then go home again because I was people pleasing. I had to please everybody and be there for them. I had no respect for myself, um, which obviously didn't help me, um, get any better. I was just progressively got worse.
Nicky Alan: And in the end I ended up collapsing half time through a show. It was a worst demons. Oh my God. It was an awful show down in Devon. It was near Christmas time. And I just saw, I can't do this anymore. You know, and I was so scared to lose my house materialistically. I was clinging on trying to do this work for a year.
Nicky Alan: And then finally, in the January, I got the diagnosis of M. A., which is chronic fatigue syndrome, um, and fibromyalgia. Now, I remember people saying, I've got M. A. And I used to think, oh, they're so pathetic. Why don't they just get themselves together? They're only a bit tired because I don't know if you, well, you won't remember.
Nicky Alan: You're too young, darling. But it's like the yuppie flu. I'm not sure what you think. I. I'm not [00:21:00] as young as you think. How old are you? I'm almost 40. What?! Oh, I just want to be sick right now. That's just not fair. That's not fair. Oh my god, you look amazing! I thought you were in your 20s! Oh my god, I'm sorry, but love and light, I hate you.
Nicky Alan: I'm only joking, darling. You are just so beautiful. Your skin is amazing. I do actually want to just be really horrible to you. I'm joking. I'm joking. I would hug
Savia Rocks: you even if you were. I would hug you.
Come here.
Nicky Alan: Come here. I love you so much. Um, So I don't know if you remember, it used to be called the yuppie flu in the 80s and 90s, you know, and I did remember people that I used to come across saying I've got MA and I'm like get yourself together, you're a bit achy and a bit tired, and I had, and you don't do you, when you have not got it, it affects you [00:22:00] or your family, you really don't care about other illnesses do you, you don't, and then At least then, because I'm a survivor and always have been, I'm very proud of that.
Nicky Alan: I'm very proud of myself for that. And I could never say that in my, I call my old life before the accident. But I, I, I'm a survivor and I thought, right, let's, let's smash this thing. You know, I've got to get rid of this. I'm not having this at all. Um, but then. Oh, please be quiet, Teddy. I'm so sorry if you can hear him listening in the background, he's binging away.
Nicky Alan: We liked it, we liked Teddy. It's up to him, I love his heart, he's run out. Anyway, so I thought, yeah, that's fine,
I can handle this, but little
Nicky Alan: did I know, and I don't want to do too many spoilers for the book, but so many people have written, oh my god, How much more could you handle? Because it just led to complete loss of every single material thing I ever owned.
Nicky Alan: And I worked my butt off as a police officer, and then obviously I put [00:23:00] my whole life, Doored doing my work as a psychic medium. I adored the seminars, the workshops, the people, the shows because I was giving something and helping people bring in comfort. It was, oh my God, I was so lucky to go from, you know, even though I did readings in the evening when I was a police officer, but to do something on both scales, I was a family liaison officer in the police.
Nicky Alan: Um, and I was dealing with murder victim families, rape victims, and I was their strength during their weakness. And then I'm the strength during people's weakness when they lose people, so it was always an extension of my police work. And then to have that being taken from me, as well as my material life, where I ended up literally with dustbin bags in the back of my car, homeless.
Nicky Alan: Because by that point, I bought the mobile home down here, but everything went. Um, I literally lost everything. I didn't have a penny to my name. Um, my [00:24:00] partner had stolen thousands from me. So I was in such severe debt. I had bailiffs on my back, um, who didn't care. The bank didn't care. I'd had a road accident and couldn't work.
Nicky Alan: And I slowly, slowly watched. Every single thing that a person fears apart from death, but I think it was like a death of my old self, but you know, everybody fears partner, leaving him, everybody fears losing money, losing their job, losing their career, losing their health. I had absolutely every, every one of them, every single thing that we fear.
Nicky Alan: I got and had to endure and the problem with it was is perhaps because I'm a very strong willed person I could have got through it most probably the loss the material loss and just gone with it and you know and started working in a different way like I am now as a writer and everything but I couldn't because I couldn't even get my head off the pillow.
Nicky Alan: And so I was going through this, this horrific, horrific downward spiral mentally, I was the most depressed, I was [00:25:00] suicidal every single day, I didn't want to live, I did not want to be here, I lost my faith, I'd grown up knowing that there were angels singing to me during the times I'd be abused. I grew up knowing that my dad would stand by me and hold me and cuddle me and make me laugh during traumatic times.
Nicky Alan: I remember when he in the doorway in a hospital. So I've got an allergy to, um, anesthetics and I had to have my wisdom teeth taken out awake and they were impacted and I should have been under for it. And, um, the first lot didn't go well. They ended up getting infected and it was horrific. I had my eyes puffed up and everything else.
Nicky Alan: And then I had to go for the second one. So I'd fainted before I even went in there with the stress of it. And I knew what pain I was going to go through and discomfort. And then my dad just popped up. In the doorway and went, I don't fancy going through that rather you than me. I'm like, Oh my God. So I wait for you to come and give me messages and you're just going to come now to take the Mickey out for me because I've got to have my wisdom tooth taken out.
Nicky Alan: Yeah. [00:26:00] Thanks a lot for that. So anyway, I remember the doctor, who was kneeling on my chest at the time, after about, you know, five minutes, he goes, Wow, and he was gorgeous. I'm not going to lie. Oh my God, this doctor was so gorgeous. And he had this really nice Irish accent. It could lay on my chest, rip my teeth out any time.
Nicky Alan: And he said, I don't, I've got a rubbish Irish accent. He goes, I don't know where you went off to, but it worked. Right. And I went, wait two minutes. It's all over. It's done. And then my dad winked and what's amazing is, Xavier, what is amazing is, right, is that my auntie was in hospital at the same time and I didn't know, right?
Nicky Alan: And when we eventually caught up, this is his sister, my dad's sister, when we eventually caught up after, you know, how do we got better from my wisdom teacher goes, I saw your dad, um, a couple of weeks ago when I was in hospital, I went, what? And we realized it was the same day. And I said, what was he wearing?
Nicky Alan: And he was wearing exactly [00:27:00] the same as what I saw him in. A purple shirt and grey slacks. Exactly the same clothing. And that's unusual. And I think that's perhaps, you know, if he just wore a white shirt, but he made sure that he wore a purple shirt, which is obviously spirit, colour of spirit, third eye stuff, and grey slacks.
Nicky Alan: That's exactly, exactly the same clothes he was wearing that he visited my auntie in. And so that was my proof then and there. I, because you know, as a, you know, I'm an open minded skeptic, so I'm thinking I just made it up because of the trauma I was going through. But no, he was there in the door, and even the doctor said, what, who was it, what were you looking at the door for?
Nicky Alan: He said it just was weird. You just suddenly went off relaxed and I could get on with whatever I was doing and you just didn't even blink, you know, it was incredible, incredible. Um, and so all of that, when we wind ourselves back forward to me after the road accident, you know, I was, I was so for hopping, you know, I was.
Nicky Alan: I was staying around people's houses, dragging my poor two dogs that were rescue dogs, and they [00:28:00] didn't know their arse from their elbow, to be honest with you. They're like, where are we staying now? Um, and I lost my faith because I just thought, you know what? I must have made it up. I've never seen my dad.
Nicky Alan: They're not angels talking to me. It's all a load of crap. I hate you. I hate the world. I want to die. I've made it all up. I've mind read all the people, the hundreds of thousands of people that I've done readings for. It's all crap. And I just literally went into the darkest space of my life. There was nothing, nothing that I was going to look forward to.
Nicky Alan: The, um, the person who I went to see, the specialist said to me, the, 'cause you end up gonna see an osteopath, don't, not osteopath, um, bloody osteopath. What are they called? Oh, my rheumatologist. So all I, all I could see, 'cause a consultant had said to me that if you've had it for more than a year, uh, it is pretty much you're not gonna get any better.
Nicky Alan: So they gave me a prognosis of. You're going to stay in bed for the rest of your life. You're not really going to be able to walk anywhere, [00:29:00] do anything. At the time I'd wake up and an eye would be closed, blurred vision. I had no control over toilet. If that's the best way to put it. Incontinence. Um, obviously 24 7 teeth grit and pain.
Nicky Alan: Exhaustion, there should be another word for it with CFS and fibromyalgia sufferers because exhaustion is beyond anything you could possibly imagine. It's just absolutely, oh my goodness, you just can't even get your head off the pillow. And to see that as a prognosis, we don't get any help. We don't get, there's no support centres.
Nicky Alan: There's an ME clinic that you'll go to through the NHS which is not worth the salt. Thank you. It's just not worth anything. Um, they get you, I managed to go to one and exhaust me even to get there. And they, they said, Oh, take this diary back and fill in, you know, your life and, um, what, what sets off [00:30:00] your pain.
Nicky Alan: And I'm like, I'm, I'm always like it 24 seven. All I do is lay in bed. I have done for months and years. I had insomnia as well. So you can imagine how bad it is when you can't get to sleep. So I couldn't get to sleep and then I'd sleep all day. My whole pattern of existence was completely out of sync. Um, and it was also exceptionally embarrassing because you're staying around people's homes and you're really poorly and you're trying to get up with them and, you know, go to go to sleep the same time as I do.
Nicky Alan: And I just, all I want to do is just get up. you know, at night and wander around if I could to try and stop the pain hurting so much. And I couldn't because I was in people's homes. It was just, do you know what? To be honest with you, when I'm talking about it now, it's like I'm talking about someone else's life and someone else's book, you know, because I'm putting myself back in that situation.
Nicky Alan: I cannot believe I went through it. Equally. I cannot believe the miracles that then took place. And I even now sometimes think, [00:31:00] did that really happen? Did I put that in there to make it magical in the book? And I know it did because the dogs, as you've heard, Very vocal and they would go ballistic as soon as there was a presence in the room, whether it was a guide, angel, spirit person, they were up barking, going mental at whoever was there.
Nicky Alan: So I knew I wasn't making it up. I knew that it wasn't a crisis hallucination, if you like, um, when all of these visitations started and, and the number one word I would say, which perhaps should have been the title of the book is surrender. Because all I. Yeah, surrender. Because all I did, all I did was mourn and grieve my old life.
Nicky Alan: So I used to go diving, I used to have money, I used to have a home, I used to, you know, be a really good psychic medium. I had the world at my feet. at that stage of my time. As I said, I was touring with Colin Fry. I was just about to [00:32:00] sign up on a book deal. I was writing in all the national international spiritual magazines.
Nicky Alan: I was wanted everywhere. You know, all of the time I had a PA, I had my own team because I couldn't handle the work on my own. So I was literally going from strength to strength, but obviously I wasn't right inside. I wasn't working it. You know, I was teaching it. I was demonstrating it, but I was not working it myself.
Nicky Alan: And they knew that. And it was like, wow, this is all going really wrong. She's not with the right partner. It's just all wrong. So they literally had to strip me bare to start a blank canvas. all over again because they need me for God knows what. You know, at the end of the day, my nose is itching. My nose always itches and my head and my crown chakra itches when I talk to people like this on this, about this type of thing.
Nicky Alan: I think it just, again, spirit energy, angel energy. And I literally was [00:33:00] taken through spiritual boot camp. It's the only way to describe it. And I, I ended up my, one of my friends randomly lent me some money and said, look, you're going to get a payout at some point. Um, you need a roof over your head. What a beautiful thing he did for me.
Nicky Alan: Um, and I ended up renting a place in a cemetery.
Nicky Alan: Honestly, and do you know what though? It was a Victorian cottage and I used to laugh about it. It's in a place called Kingsway. Is there anybody that knows Devon or know Kingsway? And as you drive down to the lower ferry that takes you across the River Dart, Dartmouth down there, which is stunning, beautiful down there, there's this cottage on the corner and it's the lodge where the, um, cemetery keeper used to live.
Nicky Alan: And I used to drive past and joke and go, I'm going to live in that house because obviously dead people in the back garden. Do you know what I mean? And people used to laugh and I ended up, I didn't even know. I literally, I don't, as I say, another spoiler in the book. [00:34:00] My, my nan turned up and said, Oh, you know, go on this right move.
Nicky Alan: And so I went on right move and this cottage was there. I didn't realize it was that cottage. And then as we started getting closer and closer, my friend took me. I'm like, Oh my God, it's a cemetery cottage. And I phoned them up without even going in. I know that I would have that cottage. I knew I'd live in it.
Nicky Alan: I just know. And so I didn't have a pot to pee in. Um, I, you know, at this point, my, my friend had offered to lend me any money. Okay. I didn't have any credit references. Obviously all my credit had been lost, you know, with the credit people. There's no way I was going to get it. There's no way I was going to get it.
Nicky Alan: And you know what I did? And I, even the credit check went through and I'd like, you know, lost my house. I'd been had my, um, mobile home repossessed. It's like, what the hell, how did that happen? And that was the place where, um, the spiritual bootcamp began. First of all, getting my faith back and the fact that there was something still out there.
Nicky Alan: Also, [00:35:00] what helped was, is that a couple of years beforehand, my dad had come and visited me, and I know it will never happen again while I'm on the earth plane this time around, but he manifested himself, um, for 10 minutes and told me The hell I was going to go through and he told me when I would come out of it and when I'll be living this amazingly different life, blessed with abundance and happiness and contentment and I thought, whatever.
Nicky Alan: Um, but I, but that was in the back of my mind, despite the fact that I wanted to kill myself and every day I pick those tablets up on that morphine up and think I'm literally half an hour away from death. Um, but then I was stopped because my dogs would be laying on my chest. I thought, God, I can't leave them here.
Nicky Alan: I can't do it. So they kind of kept me alive. And then when the miracles started, the visitations, the synchronicity, the signs started, I thought, my good God, there's something. really happening here, which I need to kind of pay attention to. They even in dream state, they were getting hold of my [00:36:00] consciousness and taking me through healing through my dream state.
Nicky Alan: Um, and as I say, the surrender moment came where I just thought, you know what? I can either kill myself or I need to start trusting this stuff that's starting to happen and let them you know, take over, i. e. the angel realms of spirit world. Um, and I, I literally did it naked under a full moon in the, in the cemetery.
Nicky Alan: And I just, I found it was a representation of, of birth. You come into the, you know, the world naked. completely vulnerable. And so for some reason, I didn't plan to do it because it was blinking freezing. I think it was like February. It was so cold and there was like frost on the ground, but I didn't care.
Nicky Alan: And I just literally kneeled down with my arms out. And I just said, I just give my heart and soul. And I said, I'm to you. Please help me. Please show me the way forward because I can't do this anymore. I don't want to go back to spirit world. I haven't got [00:37:00] the courage to take myself back there. You need to help me now.
Nicky Alan: I surrender myself. Basically I did that. Cry my eyes out, shuffle back to bed. the following day there was a food and drink hamper on the doorstep that someone had put anonymously down there and it had all the food that I needed because I couldn't buy food at the time I didn't have enough money and I thought wow this is weird who would put a food hamper on the doorstep you know and then that is when it started and I just all I can say to you is you know without giving you every single thing that's in the book that'll make you go wow Is that if anybody who listens to this thinks they're alone, no matter what trauma they're going through, no matter what has hit them on this particular life, you are not alone.
Nicky Alan: I kid you not. And, and the thing is, is that I do love that I did lose my faith for that time. And I hated them and everything they represented, because it's almost like people could have said, Oh, you know, it's preaching to the converted. It was easy for [00:38:00] you. It wasn't, they had to literally drag me from this dark abyss.
Nicky Alan: of lack of faith and hate and anger and pain and vulnerability and defeat and bring me back to someone that sits here now. I was just saying to you, you know, and what I also love as well is that this book isn't about me, myself and I. It's about, oh, I've sussed it. I'm now healthy and I play tennis three times a day and swim 10 miles every single week, you know?
Nicky Alan: No, because those books really pee me off. They really get on my boobies, I'm not gonna lie.
It's a licky.
Nicky Alan: Because people used to send me, people used to send me books, I've worked out the secret of Emmy, yes, I'm brilliant. You think, oh shut up, you know. And that is why I did such a, a raw depiction of how messed up I was.
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Savia Rocks: I'm so glad that no one can see us sometimes [00:39:00] because Laughing
If they did,
Savia Rocks: they'd just be looking, they'd be like, S Samia are you okay? Laughing Yeah, I'm great You
Nicky Alan: know, and that's why I did such a raw depiction of how messed up I was and how bad it really is because I was so sick of all these people like in their skimpy little tennis.
Nicky Alan: Oh, I've worked out CFS. Yeah. And I know you haven't, there isn't a cure. Get over yourself, love. You obviously either have just naturally progressed from having fatigue or you didn't have it in the first place and you're misdiagnosed because it, you know, and part of the part of this is acceptance. So you've got your surrender and then you've got your acceptance.
Nicky Alan: Accept your new life. And then once you've accepted that and accepted what you're, you're dealing with, then you adapt. And the adaption came again, not my choice. I didn't even think for a minute that I would be an author ever. Don't get me wrong. I loved writing. I loved doing [00:40:00] my articles in magazines.
Nicky Alan: I've always been very good at writing since I was a kid. You know, I took my English O level early. Um, and I love the English language, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah. And so When this angel starts saying, right, I'm like, you are having a laugh, mate. I'm not writing anything because during the time of when I was ill, when I could physically pick up a pen and physically say, I would write down in my journal.
Nicky Alan: what was going on mentally, physically, spiritually in my life at the time. So yes, there was a lot of pain in those journal entries that you'll read. Um, but again, it's showing the reality of this condition because we are literally left to get on with it. You know, as I said to you, the ME clinic, Oh, you know, color in a diary.
Nicky Alan: And then I got struck off cause I was too ill to attend. I was too exhausted. It's like what, you know, they said, Oh, you go to physiotherapy. Could I have hydrotherapy, please? I said, I think that'll really help being in a warm [00:41:00] pool. Just been out. No, no, no. We only do that for people that, you know, accidents recover.
Nicky Alan: And I said, what I am, it goes, no, no, no. You know, if they've broken the leg or something. I'm like, well, what do? Tai Chi. And I said to this bloke, I said, are you taking the I said, are you taking the And he goes, what? You can't say that to me. I said, I can't even lift my head. I said, can you not see I'm laying my head on a pillow in a wheelchair.
Nicky Alan: It's taken me three hours to get ready. My friend dressed me. And got me here and now I'm actually going to sleep for a week because I've made the effort to come here and you're telling me to do Tai Chi. I nearly said to him, are you on drugs or something? I think you should have. And he got the right, so you refused to do it then.
Nicky Alan: I went, oh my, do you know what, just wheel me out of here. It wasn't a cool move actually, just wheel me out of here. I would like to be stamped out of there myself. Just wheel me out from this man. And he said that I, you know, my attitude was wrong. I couldn't even do it. What the hell? So I got [00:42:00] struck off there because I was too ill to attend and refused to do Tai Chi.
Nicky Alan: I didn't refuse. I couldn't even raise my bloody arms. You know, my nose is itching me now as well. I see. But that's normally my dad or my nan. But I can't see or feel anybody. So I don't know what it's about. But every single time I start talking about spirit or I'm working in that vibration and thinking of them and feeling them, it's my nose and my crown chakra.
Nicky Alan: So weird. Mine is
Savia Rocks: my nose and my third eye. And your
Nicky Alan: third eye. Yeah, mine's crown and nose. So we're similar.
Savia Rocks: Yeah. All the time.
Nicky Alan: Beautiful energy you have. Beautiful, isn't it? Um, so, yeah. So, I kind of remember where I am now. It's such a lovely chat. Yeah. So, then, as I say, the miracles of Spirit Boot Camp came and with every single thing that happened, it was so gobsmackingly unbelievable, even to the extent of my Nan, you know, directing me to this new drug that I had to take, LDN.
Nicky Alan: And then, within a week of taking that, I was up and phoning my mum, [00:43:00] saying, I'm going to come and see you. What are you talking about? You know, I've been in bed for years. I need five years and I said I'm gonna drive over and she lived in Hayling Island. It was a good two hour drive. I said I've got this new drug.
Nicky Alan: I said that Nan told me about. And, um, Dan told you? Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'll tell you when I see you. Um, and then I was driving for two hours. It was very difficult, don't get me wrong. I had to take a lot of pain relief and I kind of had to stop every ten minutes. So I really shouldn't have done it, but I, it was part of my sanity to get some form of control and some form of independence back, you know.
Nicky Alan: Um, So, I didn't even realize, I didn't put this in the book, right? I didn't even realize, because my car had sat for years, it wasn't taxed or anything. So, my gosh, so difficult! And it wasn't until I came back, I thought, oh my goodness! My car's illegal, so I had to get it all done really quickly. Um, and then, you know, there are Look at you, Joy Raider.
Nicky Alan: Sorry, darling. Look at [00:44:00] you, you joyrider. No! No! I'm just, I'm shameless, darling. I had no tax or anything. No MOT. I was shameless. But then, you know, it hadn't done anything. It was obviously safe, because I definitely wouldn't have driven it if I didn't think it was safe. But I remember it was all full of cobwebs and God knows what, that poor little car.
Nicky Alan: Um, And it, you know, it just, it gave me the boost. Don't get me wrong though. As you know, I think as you've read it, there's peaks and troughs where suddenly something else will take you down. But one of the things I've learned is, is no matter how many times you go down, you could go down 800 times, but the fact is you get up 801 and that's how I look at it.
Nicky Alan: It's getting up again. It doesn't, you know, and I just, as I just said to you, I've had two weeks. Or even three weeks. Oh my god, it's been three weeks. I've had three weeks of laying in bed, bored because my mind has not been able to interact or do anything. Oh my goodness. Again, the [00:45:00] other problem is spirit people come in, they start barking at nothing.
Nicky Alan: Mia.
Savia Rocks: You know, you know what it could be as well. She's, you know what it could be. It could be. Okay, I'm an imp off and I'm also an angel so it could be that I see a lot of the things that you said
Nicky Alan: She's barking. I don't know you have to excuse the mess I don't know if you can see, she's barking at the mid air, there's nothing there.
Savia Rocks: Yeah, it's because someone's there.
Nicky Alan: Yeah, Mia, she's looking directly at nothing. I can't sense it though, it's a bit weird. Come on, come, come back, good girl.
Nicky Alan: Dog's interrupting again. So, um, what's we saying darling?
Savia Rocks: So, you, you taxed your car. Yeah. You went to see your mum.
Nicky Alan: So when I was at my mom's, she's like, couldn't believe it. She was crying and everything saying, wow, this is just [00:46:00] incredible. Um, that you're here. And then I told her about all of the visits and all the rest of it.
Nicky Alan: And she'd been getting a lot of spirit visits. And then I felt, Oh my God, I don't believe this. One of the things I'm going to be dealing with in the future is very soon, just knew she was going to die. And the problem with that is, is that Dick who I was with had managed to separate me from an already fractured family, that being my brother and sister.
Nicky Alan: So I then had to realize that there was going to be a reunion coming up. And it's just incredible how during the journey of loss to then gaining everything back, I've refound my family. All that's been healed. All that's been healed. And that was ripped to pieces right from the beginning. Um, because I adopted, um, you know, this mum figure to try and protect them from the monster that my mum married.
Nicky Alan: Um, and I was more viewed as a mum than rather than a sibling. And it was just all totally wrong. So it was easy [00:47:00] to fracture a family and this Dick was a con man anyway. So he easily kept them away from me because they'd found out that he was stealing from my company as well. Um, and so, you know, to go through the process of losing my mom, but with this new concept, this new knowledge, this new strength in the spirit world, this new, don't get me wrong.
Nicky Alan: This is what I don't want people to misconstrue before the accident. I knew, I felt, I believed, and I had everything connected to the spirit world and the angel realms. But as I said, I didn't feel it and work it for myself. And this was the first time I went through a loss. where I was working it for myself, checking in with myself, checking in with the spiritual elements around me.
Nicky Alan: I've got an amazing photograph of Archangel Azrael that was there in the hospital room when I was there with my sister in law, who I'd just reunited with, and my brother. And I took a photo and thought, Oh my God, that's Azrael. And I [00:48:00] heard his name as I took the photo. And Azrael is the angel that's there around people that are just going to be passing soon.
And
Nicky Alan: Even though it was incredibly difficult and it was so tragic because my, you know, it was down to the hands of carers that had neglected her and my stepdad had neglected them. That's not the one that wasn't the abuser, by the way, that's the third one, um, had abused, had not abused them, but just left them.
Nicky Alan: So they were dehydrated, starved, hadn't had their medication. And I, I absolutely 100 percent blame them, but I've dealt with that, um, for their demise. Um, it was Christmas Day as well that we had to rush down there and it was, and it was, it was bittersweet being there with my brother and sister, um, eating rubbish out of a vending machine on Christmas Day, looking at our mum knowing that she was going to die.
Nicky Alan: It was just, just no doubt about it. But again, going through that. With all the knowledge I had with knowing that the angel realms what they'll be doing the spirit world [00:49:00] and knowing that I was strong enough to cope with that after everything I've been through. It was so much easier to cope with the grief and to cope with the loss.
Nicky Alan: Don't get me wrong as a human, we're all going to be devastated, but it was easier. And I think I try and get that across in me, myself and I. And everything now it's like it doesn't matter. You know, and I don't mean that in a flippant way, but everything that crosses my path now, but, and it isn't a lot to be fair because I just literally live in this abundance.
Nicky Alan: Now, if I think, Oh, I could do with that, that'll really help bang happens. Now I remember, um, when was it? I think it was last year, the year before I was really struggling with that same old car because it was manual and my limbs were killing me. Even just. You know, when I can manage to go out, even if it was around the corner, my leg on the clutch and using the gears, I said, I can't do this.
Nicky Alan: It's killing me. So I thought I need an automatic car.
Savia Rocks: Yeah.
Nicky Alan: I thought I haven't got any credit though. There's no way I'm going to get it. But I just thought, [00:50:00] and then suddenly it was, you will. And I thought, I will. I deserve this. I need help. I need an automatic car. I need something where we just put my foot on and steer.
Nicky Alan: And by the end of the evening, I had like a year and a half old car, um, automatic with even a panoramic roof that I wanted. I thought, no, I deserve this. And I got it. That's like, I seen them. I hop was in my throats. I thought there's no way I'm going to get the credit. And I thought, stop it. Stop thinking that you do deserve it.
Nicky Alan: You need this because of your pain, you know, do it. And it just went bling, thank you very much, you can pick your car up next week. I'm like, oh my gosh, this is ridiculous. And that's how my life works. I've now got the most beautiful home. It's all paid for, got no mortgage, right next to the beach. So as soon as I feel well enough, like today for instance, is one of my first days where I felt quite normal.
Nicky Alan: And so I thought, right, it takes me 30 seconds in the car because walking perhaps would be too much [00:51:00] energy because I've learned to respect my body, my energy, my pain levels, which I never did before. I don't hardly ever drink alcohol. I don't do get dairy gluten because I've been taught all this through the years from the spirit world and from all these people I've attracted in abundance of helped me on a homeopath route.
Nicky Alan: Um, so I'm like this guru, temple body. Why am I not a size 10 though? That's what I don't get. I used to drink like a fish, I used to eat takeaways after shows. I am now like snow white without eating a poison apple. And what happens? Still not a size 10.
And
Nicky Alan: what's all that about? Not even I'm a size 10.
Nicky Alan: What are you
talking about? Well, I
Nicky Alan: thought I'd be amazing. No, I'm only joking. And so, and I literally, all I've got to do is drive him automatic car down there. I let the dogs out. I sit on the sea wall, making sure I'm [00:52:00] warm and just embrace the energy and hear the energy of the sea. And they run around to their heart's desire.
Nicky Alan: And I've like, I've made it, I've done it. Whereas. You could adopt a, Oh my God, you know, I'm in pain. I can't go anywhere. All I'm doing is going to the beach. All I'm doing is this, but I've adopted and they've taught me to adopt this way of life that you look at every positive. You know, last summer I would sit and hear birdsong and watch one of my spirit totems is a bee.
Nicky Alan: And one of my friends even bought me, I know people aren't going to see this, but one of my, one of my beautiful friends, my new friends that are now around me and this new energy and the most beautiful, caring, empathic, most wonderful, positive people I've ever had in my life. Um, and so one of them bought me this and made me cry.
Nicky Alan: A bee pendant on the necklace and just a bee coming and landing on my leg every day. And then there was a dragonfly and even my [00:53:00] friend noticed it. She went, didn't that happen yesterday? She used to come over and sunbathe with me in the back garden. I say, yeah. And then I had a dragonfly and a bee land on me every single day.
Nicky Alan: Even when my brother came to stay with my beautiful, um, nieces and nephew. Like, even on the beach, my, and they're psychic, especially my nephew, Tyler, he's just, wow, he's going to be amazing medium. And he went, Auntie Nikki goes, look down, and I went, even on the beach, there's a bee sitting on my leg. And he even noticed it when they were staring.
Nicky Alan: I went, this is really weird. So she starts used to test it and go, if there's, you know, if this, if you're my totem, I thought this is my mom's energy. It feels like if, you know, if there, if you're my totem, let me know. And then a car drive past with a B painted on the back of it. There you go. And so, you know, and that's how my world rocks now.
Nicky Alan: See, I've got it in there. Savia rocks. See, I'm clever aren't I? I like it. And so. [00:54:00] I'm completely in tune with them all the time. And it's almost like I live more, um, conceptually spiritually up there than I am here. So that if anything happens that gets on my nerves, it's, or, you know, anything, any low ballers that come in life, as I say, I really don't get a lot of them.
Nicky Alan: It doesn't matter. You've got to look at the gratitude side of your life. What are you grateful for? What is good in your life? Yes, this isn't a great thing that's happened, but can you change it? No. Or can you change it? Yes. Change it. If not accept it, move on, adapt. So it's surrender, accept, adapt. That's exactly how I live my life now and it's perfect.
Nicky Alan: And yeah, it has been rubbish. Don't get me wrong. I've had a couple of days and I do put that towards the end of my book. You know, yeah, you know, it's still, I'm still going to get crap days. It's still going to be rubbish, but it's okay. It could be worse. You know, and so I just enjoy a box set, which [00:55:00] is wonderful.
Nicky Alan: I should become, I should become the new Jonathan Ross. I should be Silicon Hill. Literally, everybody comes to me now and goes, well, what should I watch on Netflix? Okay, what genre do you want, darling? Yeah, well, you can watch this, this, this, this, and that. And because, you know, that's great. Whereas, again, Desert or Oasis, and one of my main guides, Julianas, and I'm sure I've put this in the book, where he says, What is wrong with you people down there?
Nicky Alan: You know, why do you always choose to drag yourself through the desert, starving and thirsting and suffering in your mind when you could be laying in an oasis by sparkling pool, eating fruits and drinking as much water as you want? Why do you always put yourself through the, you know, why do you focus on the negative and drag yourself through this pain?
Nicky Alan: Snap out of it. It's true. It is true. But we do, don't we? And we even love to invest in it. So if we're having a rubbish day or we've got the um, we then think, right, [00:56:00] let's make it really crap. Let's put some music on it. It'll make me feel even worse. And I'll just think about it. Yeah. I'm going to dedicate the next 10 minutes to thinking about all the things that could go wrong, all the projections.
Nicky Alan: It's almost like, you know, The, the 10 of swords in tarot or nine of swords projecting all this ill thoughts and feelings, but it hasn't even happened. We just love to, you're man,
Savia Rocks: you're manifesting it and you don't even realize you're manifesting
Nicky Alan: Absolutely right darling. And so you've got to snap out of it.
Nicky Alan: And, and as I said a couple of days ago, I was like, this is rubbish on my back. I was in agony. I was totally exhausted. I was, I couldn't even understand what was being said on the telly. I'm thinking, Oh my God, this is it. I'm going to end up with this for months and months and months. And I nearly went down that slippery slope of indulging and allowing that first thought to lead to further thoughts that then leads to emotion, then leads to a behavior.
Nicky Alan: And I stopped it and I thought, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, [00:57:00] whoa, no, no, no, no, no. What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? And in the end, all I did was, was put on my favorite music from the eighties and that kind of just took me out of that, you know, snap me out of it. It's like, do you know when you watch all these dog training things and the, like, you know, the dog, The dog whisperer turn up.
Nicky Alan: They snap the dog out of it, snap out of it, so that they don't continue. It's true though, isn't it? That analogy has just come into my head. I'm mental, aren't I? I know I am. Right, and it's, but they, they, they, you know, they suddenly go, what? Or whatever they do, like, what's his name? Caesar Madlan, or whatever his name is, right?
Nicky Alan: He goes, And they're like, well, and they, and he snaps them out of the reverie they're in, which is either going into angry, aggressive mode or vulnerable mode. And that's what we need to do. We need to snap ourselves out of it and change our thought direction to something positive, something good, no matter what it is.
Nicky Alan: no matter what it is. And that's how I get through it. And this is why, no doubt, you know, the angel realm is saying, you will, you know, send this book [00:58:00] out of your diet, your personal diary. I'm like, are you mental? No. Um, and then I suddenly get these magazine columns from nowhere, which is impossible.
Nicky Alan: Because you have to be out there doing it and be, you know, really, like I was, thousands of followers and everything else. And I had none. I think we got down to about 5, 000 followers in the end. God bless them, those Facebook followers. And I'm like, no, I can't put a book out because most of them will Us, you know, what your presence is, and they won't accept a deal because I haven't got any columns or anything.
Nicky Alan: So no. What happens? The following day, I get an email, right out of the blue. Hello, would you like to do a column? And I'm like, whatever, Angel Realms, whatever. And then, just to really rub it in, a month later, I get another offer for another one. So that was Psychic Detective and, um, Diary of a Psychic, um, in Fate and Fortune and Spirit and Destiny.
Nicky Alan: And I'm like, okay, okay. I'll put the book together then. And I honestly didn't think for one minute, and it's really [00:59:00] bad for me because we really should, as you say, you manifest exactly what comes to you. So it should have been this book will go out. I will get a deal and this will be great. And I didn't, I sent out like, yeah, take it if you want, but it's just a diary.
Nicky Alan: Who's going to care about it. And then within a week I get this deal offered and I'm like, Oh my God, these publishers want to take it. I couldn't believe it. And then when it goes out, it goes to number one. Um, on Amazon in my genre, I couldn't believe it. And literally, as I said to you earlier, you know, the people that have the emails from all over the world that I've got from people to say, You know, my God, what you went through and that you've pulled yourself back and you're so positive and abundant.
Nicky Alan: And you've, you've given me inspiration to fight or you've given me inspiration to know I'm not alone. You've given me the knowledge now to know that I will always have an angel. When I fall, I will always have my dad in the spirit world with me. And then they want to [01:00:00] invest in how more can I work this?
Nicky Alan: So then that goes in hand with my YouTube videos that I do. And again, the angel realms told me to do that. And I always know it's angel realms because it's a deep commanding boof energy. Spirit people are a bit more personable, but the angel realms were teach. And I'm like, Oh, I don't think so. You've already got me doing a book.
Nicky Alan: I don't think so. Teach. And then my phone comes on. And there's a YouTube video playing. I haven't even subscribed to, and I'm like, Oh hell no. Oh, you're so not going to be doing that. No, you're not going to be doing YouTube. And then it happened. They kept pushing and pushing and pushing in here. Oh God, I'll do it.
Nicky Alan: And so I sit most of the time, no makeup and my goodness. I'd never do that before because that would have been my old self. Have to look perfect. Have to look nice and people please. And now I'm so transparent. I could be the invisible girl. Do you know what I mean? And [01:01:00] so, I sit in my bedroom, most of the time I'm in bed, and I love it, great, because you know, I've adapted, I write books, I write in magazines, and I've adapted.
Nicky Alan: And, I just sit there, no make up, most of the time my hair isn't brushed, in my PJs, sometimes you'll see me twice in the same PJs! And I just share philosophy, I do now and then I do angel and tarot card readings for people, you know, just pull a few cards for people. I do guided meditations now, um, which people are loving, especially the visiting heaven ones.
Nicky Alan: And I'm doing it from my bed. And I, and again, you know, I get Uh, messages and emails from people specifically in the US and Canada, huge following over there where they are just saying, my God, you've changed my life. You brighten my day. I now think what would Nikki do? And I'm like, Oh God, what would Nikki do in this situation?
Nicky Alan: you know, and I just can't [01:02:00] believe it. And it's all been led by another dimension. That being the angel realms. And so I trust them implicitly. Don't get me wrong. I have a bit of a moment of now and then bit domestic goes off. Like, Oh, really? Why am I in this relapse? I said that the other day, I'm not, why am I still in this relapse?
Nicky Alan: It's been nearly three weeks. It's not happening, but I'm coming out of it now. Whereas I honestly believe If I was still in that old mental state, if I was still in that old way of being, this would be another couple of years relapse. And so, you know, it's just honoring it, thinking, like, what do I need?
Nicky Alan: And I even, I'm so tuned into my body, this is a beauty of, this was a gift, darling. This accident was the biggest gift I could have got, because my whole life would have been a rollercoaster of chaos. And now it isn't. And so, even now, I think, I need iodine and water. And then I'll go to, you know, and I used to have this kinesiologist [01:03:00] used to go to, he goes, You need iodine.
Nicky Alan: I went already on it. I was told two days ago, my intuition told me, okay, then, and I'm on it and I know what my body needs. I've recently had this thing. I need manuka honey. So I've been feeding myself manuka honey and then it stops and I don't want it anymore. And so I just listen to what I need. Do I need peace?
Nicky Alan: Do I need music? And I have my angel music on. I have my essential oils burning and I am in the most fantastic sanctuary. And I can't believe how lucky I am that I've been shown this and that I can work it so easily. And you know what, when you are physically exhausted, when you have a chronic condition, when you're in pain all the time, when you've got depression, and I had, you know, I've always suffered mental health anyway issues because of my past.
Nicky Alan: I've always suffered with depression, but pretended I didn't. And now I'm very, very proud to say that I have it. And um, I'm very proud to say that I adapt with it and I respect it. And if it tells me I'm really having a crap day, I [01:04:00] go, okay, then what should we do about that? So I see my, you know, if I ever dip down in depression, which again is a symptom of ccf s and fibromyalgia, and I think, okay, and I treat it like a little child, what do you want?
Nicky Alan: What
do
Nicky Alan: you want that can make you feel better? Not, oh my god, why have I got depression? I think, what can I do to make you better? Come on, tell me. It's too funny. I'll have a bit of chocolate and I'll watch that box set. Come on then, let's do that. Let's have this. And that's my excuse for my chocolate eating.
Nicky Alan: Ah, ah, I like it. It's purely for medicinal purposes. Um, and that's the way to do it. And so I kind of feel that, and I remember my dad saying back in 2013, When he visited me when I was in Turkey or 2014, when it was, and he said to me, you're going to be working in the most incredibly different way. He goes, you're just, you're just not going to realize, and it's going [01:05:00] to bring so much greater good.
Nicky Alan: And I remember thinking at the time, how am I going to work any differently? Because, but, but my path at that time was to prove the afterlife and bring connections, um, of people that have passed over to their people, you know, and that's what I thought I was here to do. to be someone that, you know, obviously highlight, there is an afterlife and teach people how to develop their mediumship skills and things like that.
Nicky Alan: But now it's turned more to, um, funny enough, though, my next book is about the afterlife, but, um, I've turned it more to coping on your human experience, making it easier and acknowledging Um, there is a different frequency, different dimensions out there that connected with the angel around spirit world and that we can use them and we're connected in with them and we're all part of the same universal energy.
Nicky Alan: We can work it, but we can also spread that knowledge, spread that love, especially during this crisis at the moment, you know, and we are [01:06:00] family. It's like every single person I've spoken to like you, that there's an empath and has got that energy. It's like meeting another family member. And so we're getting more connected.
Nicky Alan: We're being listened to more. People have lost faith because of what's happening in the planet. And you, you kind of watch them turn to people like us. So this we're at the forefront at the moment, empaths and life workers, you know, people like you who are doing, I've been listening to a lot of your podcasts are so powerful and so beautiful.
Nicky Alan: And people are turning to this now. They're turning to this alternative. Well, there's nothing else here. What else we got? And they're listening to the spiritual stuff that they're wanting to learn more about higher powers because they haven't got anything else. These lockdowns, people are losing the plot, you know, and so they are, we'll have a little look at that, and I think, oh, that's interesting.
Nicky Alan: And I don't know if you've, um, recently seen, um, on Netflix, Surviving Death.
I
Nicky Alan: dunno if you've seen it.
Savia Rocks: I've heard of it. I [01:07:00] heard, I have heard of it. I just haven't seen it.
Nicky Alan: Oh my goodness. Give it a look.
Savia Rocks: Okay. It covers like
Nicky Alan: near death experiences, mediums, um, reincarnation, all that kind of stuff. And it's just a really respectful, practical, well balanced look at, you know, lightworkers rather than all the rubbish they normally put on there where we have the mickey taken out of us and they pick the most pathetic wannabes and, and fill them.
Nicky Alan: You know, rather than film the people that are actually doing good in the world as medium psychics healers and um, that kind of thing I'm thinking good, you know, this, this try and bring a more positive, more balanced look at our religion, if you like our, our vocation, have a look at us and see whether you like it or not and come and have a look at what we can do and help you.
Nicky Alan: You know, and so I'm loving that and it's even thing. And I even mentioned it on one of my YouTube videos recently about Dr. Eban Alexander. I don't know if you've ever heard of him. He was a brain surgeon in America. [01:08:00] Do you, have you heard of him? And he, Oh my goodness. And he, he was a neurosurgeon, is a neurosurgeon, and basically death was death.
Nicky Alan: That was it. Complete skeptic. You know, at the end of the day, once the neurons all died and the brain's dead, that's it. Buried, done. There's no afterlife, no consciousness, nothing. Amazingly, he got hit with this most outrageously volatile and fatal virus. And he was in a coma within a couple of hours, brain dead, right?
Nicky Alan: Brain dead. And the doctors kept saying to his wife, look, you know, we're really going to have to turn him off. You need to. She went, no, he's coming back. He's coming back. And I said, look, he's, he's, he's brain dead. He's literally on a ventilator. There's nothing going on here. He's a dead body. No, no, no, no.
Nicky Alan: And she kept pushing and pushing and pushing. And after a certain amount of time, he just woke up and he said, and one of the first things he said was, get me a pen. Now I've been to [01:09:00] heaven. And he knew, he knew that he'd been to heaven because there's no way because he was brain dead, there was no way he could have hallucinations or see anything in his consciousness because it's physically impossible.
Nicky Alan: So he now goes around this creditable neurosurgeon now goes around talking about heaven. It's written a map of heaven in his books. And he goes around telling people there is an afterlife, there is a heaven, and this is how it looks. And this is what you're going to be seeing. And this is what you're going to be experiencing.
Nicky Alan: So even now the planet's turning around, knowing this crisis is taking place, sorry, I'm getting a bit deep, but you know, they're picking. Capable and respectable people giving them these experiences so that they can go forward and go. Well, hang on a minute. I was a neurosurgeon. I was a doctor. I was a nurse.
Nicky Alan: And these people are all now say I was scientist. You know, another one. I saw recently a forensic scientist and yet 100 percent there is enough to life. I know this because it's almost like the angel realms and the [01:10:00] universe are now getting all these viable people that would normally discredit us And they're saying, yeah, I'm a neurosurgeon, but I'm also telling there's a heaven.
Nicky Alan: You're like, come on now. Can you see where I'm going? It's like, there's this new awakening taking place. And it's been slowly happening since 2012. I've been watching it. And funny enough, my accident was 2012. And most of the experiences of life changing things that have happened to lightworkers I know happened 2012.
Nicky Alan: And it's been building and building and building and building to 2020, where this awakening, the age of Aquarius is taking place. Where we are now the forefront trying to bring people into this light and trying to get people to understand that we can get through this mentally, spiritually, if you just open your heart and your mind to higher powers.
Nicky Alan: No matter what your belief system is, no matter where you come from, what your creed, your religion, color, whatever, it doesn't matter. As long as you can try and connect with a higher power and know you're not alone, then you're halfway through all of the battles of your life.
[01:11:00] Amen.
Nicky Alan: Amen to that. I feel like
Savia Rocks: I've just been in church.
Savia Rocks: I think, I think you've just preached and it's gone right through me. And one thing, one thing, Nikki, that has never happened on the podcast, and I must say it. Okay. How many questions have I Used you? I'm from my sheet. One. It
was
Savia Rocks: one. It was one. No, no, no, no, no, no, no. It's all positivity. Love involvement.
Savia Rocks: It's all good. It's all goodness. It's amazing because I Used you only one question.
Nicky Alan: Wow. Do you know what? That's just really hit me because you're right. Did I cover a lot of the questions you were going to Us?
Savia Rocks: I think you covered your whole book.
Savia Rocks: You covered, you covered your book, you covered what happened in your life, your family, you [01:12:00] covered your emotional state, you covered mental health, you covered abuse. You covered. I'm seeing it's like I'm doing about guys. This is what happened. This is what you covered seeing your father. You covered, um, talking to people about spirit, spirituality and us now being at the forefront and us being that positive.
Savia Rocks: psyche help for people who feel depressed, feel like their mental state is not where it should be. And to be quite honest with you, Nikki, I love every second of it because it helps people understand that even though we are in a human form, it does not mean that we're human. Absolutely. And I've always said to people, people look at me crazy and I'm sure you will understand this.
Savia Rocks: And it's nice to be able to talk or interact with you. To a fellow family member. When I say, I'm not human. People look at me like, yeah, you are. I'm like, no, I'm not human, being serious. I'm not human. And then they're like, no, yeah, you are. I'll be like, okay, you don't [01:13:00] understand yet. So it's, it's one of those things and having second sight.
Savia Rocks: You spoke about having second sight. I have second sight. I always see my grandfather. All the time. He's always in the doorway. The same way your dog was barking, and he was at the doorway. It could just be my grandfather going to your house at the doorway.
Nicky Alan: I bring dogs! Lemme see you then it, it must have been your energy because I couldn't sense sometimes when there's visitation from another person like you, your family, I can't see or sense it.
Nicky Alan: It's really weird.
Savia Rocks: You are most probably see a man with a hat on, um, in like a suit. He's very tall and that's most probably what your dog was barking at. Right. And anytime I'm connecting to somebody who is of the same spirituality. It's most probably that, to be quite honest. That's why when your dog was barking, I was like, What's my granddad doing over there?
Savia Rocks: Oh my goodness, yeah, in
Nicky Alan: the doorway. And there was a couple of times when there was shadows going past the doorway. And I thought, no, don't start looking at [01:14:00] that because if I start zoning in, then I'm going to lose where I'm talking. But I noticed that, definitely, that there was, um, shadows going past the doorway.
Nicky Alan: So it's just looking because I know it's
Savia Rocks: every time, every time I go to the cemetery, the sun always comes out. Oh, wow. Even when it's raining, even when it's rain, it could be thunder and lightning. All of a sudden the sun would come out when I go to the cemetery to see him. And I'm like, this is really weird and I never could understand it because I was young and I was still trying to understand it.
Savia Rocks: So I could relate to everything that you were saying. And I was like, wow, we have a lot in common when it comes to it, but it's understanding and knowing and not letting anybody diminish your gift. That's another thing.
Nicky Alan: Absolutely right. Absolutely right. And again, you know, in my previous life, the old life, It would really affect me personally.
Nicky Alan: I would end up spending hours [01:15:00] doing a reading for someone to make sure I please them enough. And as you know, people that are lost, it's never enough. They want more and more and more. And so I used to completely let, you know, give away all my energy to these people to please them. And what's the whole point of me saying that?
Nicky Alan: What was that? I can't remember. I don't even know what the whole point of me saying that was now. But it's giving away all the energy, but it's maintaining the energy. Oh, there was something I was going to say there and I've completely lost it.
Nicky Alan: Can't remember. Trail of thought. I completely lost it.
Savia Rocks: It will come back, I guarantee you, I know it's going to happen, right? It will come back when we come offline. And you'll be like, man, I need to tell Sabra. I know, it
Nicky Alan: might be because I'm getting tired that it's just suddenly gone. But um, I'm glad I covered it all. Wow, I can't believe that. But you do, I've got such a passion and such a love for this.
Nicky Alan: Um, way [01:16:00] of being and trying to show people that it's there for them and it's free and it's easy. You haven't got to take a course.
Savia Rocks: Exactly. And this is what I say to people all the time. So for the listeners who don't know, I don't really talk about me very much, but I feel very safe with Nikki talking. So I'm going to talk for a second.
Savia Rocks: So I work. No, it's true. I love it. It's nice. I work in a building. where there are millionaires there all the time. I work 50 hours a week. Then I come home, I do a podcast, then I would read, then I would write, then I would get myself ready for the next day. Now I'm working in a building where these people don't need to worry about what they're eating, uh, their lifestyle because they already have everything.
Savia Rocks: But still Nikki, and I'm sure you can relate to this. They don't have gratitude. But they've been given everything, but they don't have the gratitude. Yeah. And one [01:17:00] thing that I wanted to change in that building is the way people's attitudes were towards unconditional love. When it comes to loving everything, I don't mean materialistic things, just materialistic things.
Savia Rocks: I mean, everything and everyone. And, um, Don't look at a person just on the outside and then automatically judge them. Find out who they are first. Have a conversation with them because conversation is one of the most powerful things in the world is to have a conversation with somebody. I wouldn't be able to know you Nikki, I wouldn't be able to know what you've been through, who you love, how you love, What makes you tick?
Savia Rocks: What makes you upset and angry? Technology does. I've learnt that.
Nicky Alan: I need to come out earlier. I'm not going to lie. I don't mind. I don't
mind,
Savia Rocks: but it makes you uniquely you. And what I love about what Working in my workplace is that I've changed the attitude [01:18:00] of the people who now work there. And I believe that as an angel, people are like, why haven't you made it yet?
Savia Rocks: You can make it by just being authentically you and going to different places where the angels send you to change it. That could be what you're on earth to do, to change the way people look at the world and feel at the world. Because people are abusing the world and they're abusing each other. So, Angels come in, angels in paths, psychics.
Savia Rocks: We come down to change the way people think and feel of the world. So that's just my version of what I feel it is. As well as you bringing yours in.
Nicky Alan: I absolutely get that darling, you're absolutely right. And communication is just literally, a human way of connecting your energy to someone else. You know, I, I always say I'm a spirit person on a human experience, which is what we are.
Nicky Alan: We just, we just choose to come down here, mental [01:19:00] as we are, choose our path, come and do it and have a human experience. And I think the older we get, you're an old soul as well. You've been here so many times. We choose. harder challenges because we're so euphoric up there. We go, do you know what? Let's really smash it this time.
Nicky Alan: Let's have an accident and put myself in bed for five years. Yay. And I just, and as you've done, you've changed the environment you work in. God bless you. So beautiful. You are a beautiful energy and it's the same. I make change from my bed. How many people can say that I don't even have to go anywhere. I don't even have to go into an office.
Nicky Alan: I'm very lucky in that respect. I don't have to go anywhere. I can do it sitting in my bed, which is incredible. You know, and you, again, it's just being grateful. Do you know what, what I'm really came into my mind? Sorry, I do go on, but you just, you just encourage so [01:20:00] much out of people. You're so good at what you do, darling.
Nicky Alan: And, I remember I did used to make a very healthy amount of money before and I worked very hard. Um, and I remember being in a concierge suite with a butler service, sandals in Turks and Caicos, right? And it was disgusting money. Um, and but I want to go to the best place to go diving. And I remember sitting there with a glass of champagne looking out over the Caribbean Sea.
Nicky Alan: And I'd never been so miserable and lost in all my life. So materialism is just doesn't exist. It's like I, people hold onto it. And I did that first year I held on to, I've got to pay the mortgage. I've got to pay the mortgage. And then when I collapsed and let it go, I thought, you know what? I just, the relief of not being stuck and a prisoner to materialism was palpable.
Nicky Alan: I just thought, you [01:21:00] know what, take it. And then when I moved down and was obviously in the caravan, and I thought, you know what, take it. I'm done. Just, I just can't do it anymore. Just take it. I was so many people kill themselves mentally and physically for this materialistic need to have things. What the hell is wrong with you?
Nicky Alan: No! Think about your happiness, your health, your well being. That comes first because if you're in a shoebox or a mansion, that is not going to change how you're feeling inside. Do you know what I mean? It doesn't matter. Yep. And so I don't care, you know, if I lose this again, oh I'll lose it. Fair play. I just start again because it's what's going on in here.
Nicky Alan: We all like to have, of course we all like to have nice things, but my nice thing is I got excited because I got a chest freezer today.
I got a, no because I've got
Nicky Alan: this tiny little freezer in the kitchen and I'm thinking I, you know, for my next. If I get [01:22:00] another relapse, I'm not encouraging it, I'm not manifesting it, but I'm thinking practically I need to batch cook so that when I physically can't cook or get out of bed, all I've got to do is get it out and chuck it in the microwave.
Nicky Alan: So I thought I need a chest freezer. So that to me is my biggest accomplishment, saving up for my chest freezer and getting my chest freezer in the garage. And I'm like, I feel like I've won the lottery because I now can batch cook and freeze all this food for if I ever get poorly again, I can just get And that's me!
Nicky Alan: And even my friend said she got a bit excited about a freezer and went, Oh my goodness, I am! Because I can batch cook now and I can have all my gluten free bread in there and never run out again.
Nicky Alan: Chest freezer! Yes, I've made it. I've made it.
Savia Rocks: Oh man, oh Nikki, this has been great. This has been so great. It has. Thank you for having me, darling.
Nicky Alan: I've really, really enjoyed it. No, you're
Savia Rocks: welcome.
Nicky Alan: I was just going to say, I hope I've got across everything that I wanted to say, because it, you know, [01:23:00] it can get very in depth.
Nicky Alan: Um, and I don't want to get too in depth, but then, you know, I'd like delivering things simply in a layman's terms. That's what I like to do, because I think sometimes people can overcomplicate spirituality and philosophy and get too deep in it. We need to keep it real, keep it understandable so that people that are lost out there can come into the fold and get what it's all about without all of the Smoke and mirrors, if you know what I mean.
Savia Rocks: That's true. I think, I think what we done today was more you than me, believe me. I think we simplified it. Yeah. But we also made it fun. We also made it fun to understand and know that if you have a gift, leave him alone. Know that if you have a gift, it's one that should be nurtured. And you should give your energy to the right people and let go.
Savia Rocks: There's, we all have to let go of someone or something in our life that we just don't need anymore. Absolutely [01:24:00] right. You've clearly, you've stated that so many times on the podcast today. And I can only amplify that to people for them to understand that. Just let it go.
Nicky Alan: Lose the fear. Let it go.
Savia Rocks: Yeah, that's the word.
Savia Rocks: Nikki before. I say thank you again to you. I want to Us you, where can we find you on all your social medias? So if anybody would like to get in contact with you the same way I was lucky to. Well, it's more, and Gavin, it was more Gavin. Oh, God bless Gavin. I love Gavin. He's the saviour he is. Oh my goodness.
Savia Rocks: Yeah. What an inspiration.
Nicky Alan: He's one of the good ones. Oh my goodness. Yeah. And he's brought me to you. What a star he is. You can find me. I will tell you now though, because I did do an interview with coast to coast radio, um, a little while ago and I got over 500 emails of people Using for readings. And it was like, Oh, it wasn't quite what I was on the radio for.
Nicky Alan: Unfortunately, [01:25:00] because of my condition and my writing commitments, cause I have got some projects going on with some other people with my writing, I cannot lend myself to doing just one reading for one person. I'm going to be planning to do some evenings of mediumship on zoom when I feel a lot stronger.
Nicky Alan: Please don't Us for reading at the moment. I have not got the energy to do it. I'm not well enough to do it. And I respect myself enough to say no. See, I'm doing it. I'm working it. So, but for anything else, please, um, come and see me on YouTube, which is NickyAllen, A L L E N. Um, my website is www.
Nicky Alan: nickyallen. co. uk and if you want to send me an email about anything we've spoken about today, it's nickyallen333 at gmail. com and my book, which is out at the moment, obviously, Nick, uh, I was just going to say my email address then. Emma, or me, myself and I, Diverpsychic is available on Amazon. You can either have it on Kindle or paperback.
Nicky Alan: And if you want a personalized message one, just email me or go through my [01:26:00] website. And I've also got other calls. I've got, um, a mindfulness course for spiritual self development, um, which is all the tips that the angel realms of the spirit world bought me. And it's called Prism Living. So if you have a look on the website, everything is there and I'm literally, I've got my second book coming out soon, survival.
Nicky Alan: So I'm working on that. So it's all about writing, teaching, and helping you guys out there on making the best experience you can this lifetime round. And obviously, you know, we've got so much loss going on now with COVID. Um, and so I don't think my book could have come out at a better time because it is all about how to survive loss.
Nicky Alan: It's not just about chronic illness. It's about surviving loss and finding peace, acceptance, and abundance when you have lost a person. lifestyle, whatever it is, loss is loss. Grief is grief. And so I think this is really going to help. Well, I know it has because of the feedback I've got, it's going to help people, you know, find some way of moving [01:27:00] on from their loss.
Nicky Alan: And God bless all those people that have had, have experienced that loss. It's horrific in it. How many people have lost their lives and how many people are grieving. And I think that is another reason why. so many people who suffer with mental health, not just because of lockdowns. So I think the general energy of the planet at the moment is just on an all time low.
Nicky Alan: And so that's why we're here, darling, to raise that vibration and start trying to put some like puncture holes in the ether to try and bring some light and happiness into this very, very critical time on the planet. So let's keep doing it. And you're going to keep doing it every week with your beautiful podcast.
Nicky Alan: And I'll do it sitting in my PJs, looking like rubbish from my bed.
Nicky Alan: Honestly, someone sent me a message earlier. I went, Oh my God, you look amazing. That it was, they'd found this old, for some reason, there's this one particular reading I did. About a year ago, my hair was long, I had [01:28:00] makeup on, I felt really good. So, you know, I make an effort when I feel good, when I'm feeling good.
Nicky Alan: She went, oh my god, you look amazing. Oh my god, I hardly, I didn't even recognize you. I didn't know it was you. I'm like, oh, it's only a bit of makeup, love. Just because normally I'm sitting in bed. I was actually dressed in this one. For some reason, this one particular reading I did, it's funny. Thousands of views of it.
Nicky Alan: God knows why. Don't know what's different about it. But it makes me laugh because as soon as I put a bit of makeup on and brush my hair, people go, Oh my God, I didn't even recognize you. It's like my postman. If he ever saw me dressed with makeup on, he'd be like, Who are you? Where's Nikki?
Nicky Alan: I'm only joking. I think I look quite good naturally, darling.
Savia Rocks: Yes, you do. Exactly. I I wish I had your skin. God, you look, I thought you were in your 20s. God, you look gorgeous. No, I just had my birthday like, uh, two weeks ago. Oh, darling. Happy birthday for them. I know. Pants so innit, [01:29:00] she couldn't go and do
Nicky Alan: anything.
Savia Rocks: No, I couldn't do anything. I could just like, I went and got a takeout. Yep. I rocked that. And I was like, yeah, this is cool. And like, I'm 38 and, uh, uh, I feel good. I'm happy. Uh, I don't have to Us for anything. I need anything. It's kind of like, comes when it's meant to come at the right time. Absolutely.
Savia Rocks: There's a timing for everything. It's not when you want it, it's when it's meant to be. So I just, I just chilled with it. And then that pretty much was it. Good girl. Yeah. Good girl. See, Nikki, I want to say thank you. I have the utmost gratitude for you coming on the Us People podcast today. It's been Oh, man, I can't even explain it, but I've enjoyed every single second of it.
Savia Rocks: Oh, darling, so
Nicky Alan: far, and I've got the utmost gratitude. Thank you so much for having me, and thank you for allowing me to be in your energy, because you are a star, darling, and if you ever want me back, I'll be [01:30:00] straight there, so we can have another chat.
Savia Rocks: Well, I have to. Well, I have to have you back, because you've got Book Two coming up, right?
Savia Rocks: Yes!
Nicky Alan: I know, survival.
Savia Rocks: Right. So then there you go. So that's book two. Yeah. Perfect. Well, I'll see you on book number two then darling. Yes, my dear. Guys, before I go, I'm going to say my outro.
Savia Rocks: Guys, thank you so much for listening to the Us People podcast. And please remember you can subscribe to Spotify, iTunes, Google Play, and any other platform you prefer listening to. Please also follow us. On Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter. And you can also donate to the US people podcast by simply going to the Savia rocks website, or just typing in paypal.
Savia Rocks: me forward slash us people podcast. Guys. Thank you so much for listening. Stay happy. Stay positive and as always, please continue to be kind to one another.[01:31:00]
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Nicky Alan: the darkness of the night You'll be guided through the light That's so lovely, your voice is amazing! Have you ever thought of voiceover work? Um, not really, no. Your voice is lovely. It is like melted chocolate. It's just so smooth and yummy. Nikki,
you're
Savia Rocks: too funny. I
understand why you're
Savia Rocks: a writer now, the way you
Nicky Alan: describe things.
Nicky Alan: No, no, that's true. I think also, I don't know if it's a spiritual thing or the third eye thing, but I always, I always like bring, Pictures to a thought or, or, or I'm talking [01:32:00] about.